Dear Emmy…

Tonight, when I was rocking your sister to sleep…I saw you. This isn’t the first time it’s happened. It shouldn’t surprise me…you looked so much like her. There’s a certain ways she tilts her chin…a particular expression she makes…that reminds me of you. It’s like a jolt to my system…it always catches me off guard. It makes my heart ache for you, but it also reminds me that you are always, always here with us.

Tonight, I let the tears flow for you. For the void in my heart. For the memories we will never get to make with you. I let myself feel that hurt.

But then, I wiped those tears away. And I thanked God for the memories we did get with you. Some Angel Mama’s don’t get even one day with their sweet babies. I did. And I thanked God that we always have a piece of you in your sister. You spent all but one day of your life by her side. You are kindred spirits. And I thanked God Lexi will always have you…maybe not in flesh, but in spirit.

Thank you for everything you gave us, sweet girl. You are a part of my soul now and forever. This token I wear around my neck says it all… “I will hold you in my heart until I hold you in heaven…”

For those who don't follow me on Instagram or Facebook, I received this necklace as an anonymous gift from a group of young mothers. It arrived in the mail one month to the day after we lost Emmy. God's timing is everything.

For those who don’t follow me on Instagram or Facebook, I received this necklace as an anonymous gift from a group of young mothers. It arrived in the mail one month to the day after we lost Emmy. God’s timing is everything.

Miss you most,

Your Mama

One thought on “Dear Emmy…

  1. Jennifer
    I’m so sorry about u loosing your little girl she will be watching over u and the family. My sister Jamie mata berry just lost her 3 year old little girl she will also have a sweep little angel watching over her family. You and your family will be in my prayers.

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